Who am I?

That's my new year resolution, actually. To find myself, and find my place in this world. Where I stand in this grand scheme of things. What part do I play in the lives of others. What part to I play in my life. Grand-daughter, daughter, sister, sista, best friend, good friend, friend, acquaintance, colleague, stranger - what do each of these roles of mine entail?

So far, I only know that I am clay, fit to fill the shoes of each role. I am a bundle of emotions that are inextricably tied to one another, to thoughts that might or might not matter. I dance to the beat of my heart, I have ignored my brain unless needed. I am imbalanced, unbalanced, torn in ways that have been my own doing. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing, then I kick myself for shooting myself in the foot.

I think it's fairly safe, at this point in time, to say that I am simply lost.

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What the fuck.
Honestly.
You never learn your lesson, do you.
Let's see how you're going to get out of this alive. Up, Up and Away